Been looking to my monitor for hours and can’t find the right words for this blog. No new ideas, brain won’t function and tongue-tied. Seriously, I already ran out of words to say to you. And it seems I already said almost everything to you.. So here it goes..
Hi babe! How’s life? How was everything about you now? Its been 17 months since that “God’s instrument” came to me. And I never imagined that we will get through this far, because this is longer than I thought. What we have is happier than I expected, worse than I predicted and of course better than I imagined. Yes, its so funny when we think about how things used to be before. How things are supposed to be. And how things work out so smoothly. Now, we are surprise on how these things change the way it used to. On how we adjust and how these things end roughly.. But still, we are alive. We are standing still. And I know stronger and better. People change, love fades and life goes on. We still hold on.. Things almost fall apart but it will always fall into places.
Our relationship is unique on its own way. What it differs from the others is we have this special bonding, expression, laugh and arguments that other doesn’t have. But like other relationships, we also have our downfalls and shortcomings that almost ruined our commitment. But thank you Lord, for His guidance and love. I know God bless us so much and He will always be there for us, as long as we put Him as the center of our relationship.
No matter what, I will always be your better half who will support and love you in the best way I can. I will understand your flaws and imperfections. I will hug you in your ugliest. I will stand beside you and will never leave you despite of the challenges and trials we will conquer.
Thank you for everything. Words will fail to capture how thankful I am to have you in spite of my disadvantages and lapses in life. Thank you for correcting my mistakes and putting everything in order. You are the most organize person I’ve ever met, and I know I am the opposite of who you are. But you accepted me and never fail to fix things up for me, for us. Thank you for loving me and giving your best to make me happy and contented. You always make time for me even though you’re very busy and tired from work. Despite of your hectic schedule, you stick around me. And love me unconditionally and sincerely.
I love you, you know how much I love you. You know how much I want to spend forever with you, how much I want to spend the rest of my life with you. We don’t know what will happen for the next few weeks, months, years and decades but I know everything will happen for a reason. You have faith, you believe more than I. And you inspire me to become a better person. You inspire me to pursue all my dreams.
We enjoy talking about our future together, having our simple yet happy house, having little Justine and Raymart, and having a one big happy family. Yes, its very early to talks such things but it makes us secure.
Thank you and I love you so much babe! And happy 17th bday!! I miss you! :* :*
Time flies so fast but still I remember the 1st time we talked to each other. And it’s been a year when that scenario happened. I call that day, God’s day. For God sent me the wonderful guy on the universe. On that day, my life has changed forever. And on this day last year, I welcomed you into my life and soul. An insect served as God’s instrument to write the best love story ever. Honestly, I never pictured my life with you right now a year ago. And I’m super surprised on what had we become from that day. We had our first movie date, first kiss, first argument, first mass and so on. We became a legit couple and spent 24 hours a day together. We shared countless and priceless moments every day of our lives. We argued a million times over little things. We laughed and cried on our stupid jokes. We had our own tawagan and expressions.. WE HAD SO MANY… Though sometimes, we feel like giving up because of our differences.. We still try our very best not to surrender our relationship. I know sometimes, no. Always.. I make you feel like shit for being so immature. Thank you for accepting all my flaws and being patient for my mistakes. I will never get tired of saying these two words to you because I’m so blessed to have you. Months, weeks, days.. We faced a lot of changes not just with in our relationship but with among ourselves either. I’m so proud to tell you that I love you, and I still love you from the moment I fell in love with you. It gets deeper each and everyday. Relationship is not about the length of time you had together but the foundation you built when you’re together. I know that love is not always a happy one but happy and sad are partners when it comes to it. No matter what we’ve been through or how many times I get hurt and feel like unloved by you I will always be your better half who supports you everytime. I love you and I will be forever proud to have you. We still
have a long journey together and no matter what may come along our way for the upcoming days, whether it will be good or bad as long as we’re holding each other’s hand.. We will beat the odds together! I love you so much and thank you for everything, mon amour.
Kay bilis nga naman ng panahon. Parang kailan lang, nagpapaputok pa yung mga tao para salubungin yung 2012. ‘Yung iba pa nga natatakot kasi end of the world na raw. Aaminin ko isa rin ako sa mga natakot at nagdasal nung December 21, 2012. Hindi naman masama kung maniniwala ako diba? Ngayon, huling araw na ng 2012. Lunes-December31,2012-12/31-12. HULING ARAW. Ilang oras na lang, next year na. Hehehe.
Sa nagdaang taon, maraming nangyari sa akin na hindi kapani-paniwala. Seryoso. Unexpected nga kung baga tawagin nila. First quarter ng 2012, walang sawang inuman kung saan-saan. Yung tipong uuwi lang ng bahay para maligo. Alak yung naging kakampi ko sa araw araw na pamumuhay.
Nagdaan ang mga araw, bakasyon na. OJT ko na. Syempre walang sawang inuman pa rin doon, dito, kahit saan. April 24,2012— Tinatamad ako pumunta ng birthday, pero parang may nag-udyok sa akin na gumora-bells. Eh kakauwi ko lang nun.. Sige na nga sabi ko pero saglit lang. Saglit na nauwi sa umaga!! Hindi ko alam kung bakit tumagal ako ng ganun katagal pero may kausap lang akong lalaki na Mamart daw ang pangalan. Oo, kilala ko siya matagal na. Hindi ko akalain na yung lalaking kausap ko nun, ang magbibigay ng kulay sa taong 2012 ko na akala ko taon na ata na puno ng hinanakit at sakit.
Marami akong gustong ipagpasalamat sa taong ito. Yung mga kaibigan ko andyan parin, walang sawang suporta sa lahat ng bagay. Tawanan at mga payo. Mga sampal at pang-iinsulto nila. Salamat mga kaibigan ko! Maraming salamat. Mahal ko kayo at lagi niyong tandaan na andito lang ako kahit anong mangyari.
Maraming salamat sa lahat. Kayo yung naging saksi sa aking pagkabigo hanggang sa pagbangon ko. Hindi niyo ko iniwanan. Masaya ako dahil naging malaking parte kayo ng taong ito. Itong taon na to yung taong naramadaman ko na ANG DAMI KONG KAIBIGAN.
Sa pamilya ko, na kahit laging may away. Nanaig pa rin yung pagmamahalan sa bahay. Siguro, kahit timang talaga ako at laging nakasimangot shempre di naman akong pusong bato. May damdamin din ako. Salamat sa suporta. Pag-kagraduate ko yaan niyo ako na magbabayad ng tubig. Hehehe.
So ayun na nga, yun na nga. Naging boyfriend ko yung Raymart Gayacao na yun! Akalain mo yun, ang swerte niya lang sa akin. Hehehe. Sa anim na buwan naming pagsasama, pero sa totoo lang 8 buwan na. Yung 2 una, syempre PBB teens kung tawagin. Marami kaming napagdaanan. Sa sobrang iksi nung oras. Marami kaming nagawa, napagsamahan, napagtawanan, pinagawayan, napuntahan. At kung ano pa. Napalapit ako kay God sa totoo lang. Tapos ang dami ko ring natutunan sa buhay. Eh, kung yung boyfriend mo ba naman. Forever bipolar at high blood pero hindi na ngayon. Hihi. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman, naranasan yung parang baliw. Pagkagising mo, naka-ngiti ka. Literal na ngiti. Mukhang timang lang eh. Ramdam ko kung gaano ako kamahal ni Mamart. Seryoso. Kahit sobrang praning ako andyan pa rin siya. Hindi ako iniiwan. At higit sa lahat sa lalaking to sa baba, sa BABA. Maraming salamat sa tunay na pag-ibig. In short span of time, wala eh. Speechless ako. Kahit sobrang dami kong gustong ipagpasalamat at sabihin sayo. Maraming nagbago sa akin at sana mabago na din yung iba dba? At aminado ka na mas maraming nagbago sayo. Na-control mo yung pagka-high blood mo, yung pag-kabipolar mo nawala na. Natuto ka kumanta, magtext, at nahilig ka sa picture. Bawat oras na kasama kita ay ang pinakamasayang pangyayari sa buhay ko, mahal na mahal kita babe! Sana tumagal pa tayo at malagpasan ang mga trials na dadarating.
AT HIGIT SA LAHAT.. WALA NA AKONG MASABI SIMPLE LANG PERO GALING SA PUSO. “THANK YOU LORD. SALAMAT PO SA LAHAT. SORRY PO KUNG MAG NAGAGAWA AKONG HINDI MAGANDA PERO SALAMAT PO SA LAHAT NG BLESSINGS.” Gagraduate ako eh.
NGAYON PWEDE KO NA MASABI, "Party like its the end of the world, party like its 2012."
Ohmyyyyy. Can’t believe that this will be the last 15 units of myyy life in College. Will be studying (hopefully) for almost 4 months only. Need to pass requirements as well as my practicum report. Still only 5 subjects left and I’m all out of school. The feeling. This feeling when you accomplished all those things. Studied for 16 years and now welcome to the real world. I mean reality. Thank you Lord. Thank you. I’ve been so blessed.